somehow i dont think you realize this
the things i do to you
the zillions of ways i tried to show you
the patience i held in me
the sorrow i feel
the happiness you brought
i dont understand why do i have to under go this
one minute im happy
and the other im depressed
wat difference does it make if im dead rather than alive

the problem is
i found that one single person who brought life to my lifeless life
that one single person tat could turn my day around
tat single person tat could made me smile
somehow i dont think tat person realises how important tat person is to me
as said great things take time
time did indeed take its line here
brought us closer
closer than ever
or as i thought

i was once overjoyed
and that had been taken away on the same day
i still dont understand
why did tat person have to disappear from the picture
the picture we were painting together
it was like a nightmare come true
i begin to wonder
i begin to think
"what if....."
maybe it was my fault
for not saying words meant to say

days passed and i discovered more and more
of how tat person actually thought
the thing we send each other
the words we say
i cant get it out of my head
stuck there forever
i wanna ask
"if youre reading this....why did you waste time on me?"
like i did on you
i was dehydrated tat day you disappeared
my world came apart

i dont know why am i still talking about this
i dont know why i still remember this
i dont know why eventhough u hav disappeared in my world youre still in my mind
i dont know why i spent my days hoping on you
i dont know why i THRUSTED you
i dont know why.....i never said anything when i should have
it seems i threw my happiness away


now i sit in this empty spot
hoping for something extraordinary to happen
a miracle
i still cry every night
broken deep inside
more importantly
im hoping for your return
to smile again
to laugh again
to feel COMPLETE