i've never felt this way before. i seem to just hope more and more on you. and though i know it'll never happen. i still wish and dream that i would. am i suppouse to be happy for the recent things that happened?! or am i suppouse to be sorrowful about it? people tell me to forget about it. people tell me to give it up. to say suck things are so so much easier than doing the actual thing. i know that you're not worth my tears. i know that you're not worth my time anymore. but i just cant stop. i needed to laugh. i needed to feel happy again. i can barely write anything anymore. its really hard to say good bye.
