i wish you were here
you left out me
you left without me
and now you're somewhere out there
with the bitch slut phyco babe
i hate you
why are guys so lame
everything i gave u
i want everything back but you
how is it possible that all fairy tales ALWAYS have a happy ending?! how beauty and the beast ends up in love. how snow white lands with the prince of her dreams. how cinderella after all the peril ends up with the charming prince.
i wonder wats wrong with humans today. god damn it! if its never gonna happen why do you ppl fill innocent minds with fantasies like this? why cant you just put the truth as it is? black and white. unchanged. let people see how cruel this world can actually be.
rather than leaving it up to them to figure it out themselves. leaving them to cry themselves out when tragedy happens. why? people try to prevent wars and sickness and all that other crap. why cant they just prevent this from happening. its just a simple task.
then many be there wont be anymore "weaklings" in this world. who cry at little tiny things. who tremble at tiny fears. who scream at minor little stuff. irrelavant.
and no matter how much i would actually try. the true cinderella story will never be written. published. and shown to the world. a fairy tale turned into a nightmare. with tears to ever page. with fears on every sentence. and finally the death and revival of the + DeaD CinDereLLa +
i hate you. i really do. believe me from the bottom of my heart i really hate you to the core. for the things you've done to me. for the first time in my life things never did felt as clear. but it wasnt what i wanted to know or hear or read. but no matter how much hatrate i keep inside of me, i dont know why. i cant understand.
why cant i forget you?
why cant i let you go?
i've never felt this way before. i seem to just hope more and more on you. and though i know it'll never happen. i still wish and dream that i would. am i suppouse to be happy for the recent things that happened?! or am i suppouse to be sorrowful about it? people tell me to forget about it. people tell me to give it up. to say suck things are so so much easier than doing the actual thing. i know that you're not worth my tears. i know that you're not worth my time anymore. but i just cant stop. i needed to laugh. i needed to feel happy again. i can barely write anything anymore. its really hard to say good bye.
how is it possible tat i still waste my time on you when all its gonna do to me is break me into pieces. i dont understand why am i doing this to myself. i dont understand so many things. more importantly i dont understand whats happening to me
somehow i dont think you realize this
the things i do to you
the zillions of ways i tried to show you
the patience i held in me
the sorrow i feel
the happiness you brought
i dont understand why do i have to under go this
one minute im happy
and the other im depressed
wat difference does it make if im dead rather than alive
the problem is
i found that one single person who brought life to my lifeless life
that one single person tat could turn my day around
tat single person tat could made me smile
somehow i dont think tat person realises how important tat person is to me
as said great things take time
time did indeed take its line here
brought us closer
closer than ever
or as i thought
i was once overjoyed
and that had been taken away on the same day
i still dont understand
why did tat person have to disappear from the picture
the picture we were painting together
it was like a nightmare come true
i begin to wonder
i begin to think
"what if....."
maybe it was my fault
for not saying words meant to say
days passed and i discovered more and more
of how tat person actually thought
the thing we send each other
the words we say
i cant get it out of my head
stuck there forever
i wanna ask
"if youre reading this....why did you waste time on me?"
like i did on you
i was dehydrated tat day you disappeared
my world came apart
i dont know why am i still talking about this
i dont know why i still remember this
i dont know why eventhough u hav disappeared in my world youre still in my mind
i dont know why i spent my days hoping on you
i dont know why i THRUSTED you
i dont know why.....i never said anything when i should have
it seems i threw my happiness away
now i sit in this empty spot
hoping for something extraordinary to happen
a miracle
i still cry every night
broken deep inside
more importantly
im hoping for your return
to smile again
to laugh again
to feel COMPLETE
