times like this when i wish i wasnt born.
things like this when i wish i wasnt here.
stuff like this when i wish i was dead.
when it begins to crumble.
i retreat and let it be.
never bothered to build it back.
even as i try to throw my worries up.
bigger burdens fall back down.
classmates, best frens, lesbians.
all apart of my life.
things change from time to time.
and those that i fear to lose the most.
are lost forever.
and those that i wished they leave.
never do for some reason.
things i wish i could be.
things i wish i could have.
things i wish i could do.
are nothing but a mere memory of my imagination.
i could drown the world with my tears if i wanted to.
people leave me forgotten.
poeple leave me broken.
people leave me ALONE.
just to find someone who would understand.
to feel the way i do.
to never harm me and keep me safe.
was just a mist til it happened.
a complication that was never avoided.
a decision that would hurt one way or the other.