all i wanted wan to be loved. why is it so hard for you to see that. i cant talk back and i know tat. wat if i had to tell you sumthing important.all these 14 years. i think de only time u ever said i love u was when i made you really proud and tat was history now. i dont i ever hear u say it to me anymore. im trying to say something but u keep closing the door at me. you used to care so much.why do you keep me away. why do you abandon me.why do you hide me from the world. is it because im a big disgrace to you. that i cant do anything right. that all you need now is my lil sis . a good two shoe. you dont need a worthless failure like me. why am i looking down on myself? isnt that what you hv though me all my life? you keep looking at all the bad things you dont even notice anything good in me anymore. so tell me now. is it worth being good when you cant see it in me?im faithless and hopeless. so why did you give birth to me in the first place? i had to sneak to do things i lurve cause its againts your rules.i followed them for 13 years. wat else do you want from me? i did all the things you want me to do. i didnt even get a single offence. i could get top 5 in my class if i tried. but i gave up on that long ago. when you started to leave me in the darkness. i wonder how low do i have to get to make you care. the thing is you dont even thrust your own daughter. you'd rather thrust someone else. i thought it was your job to protect me. now i know that im in a battle against the world tat shudders me to the darkness day by day. soon ill die to exsist. all the crap people tell me is nothing to me. cause i cant thrust anyone besides me.